Thursday, March 14, 2019

LIFE'S REGRETS

It is some time since I blogged..


I was reading an article about 5 great regrets people had at the end of their life. This left me thinking… what are my regrets? What  would I have done differently? It looks nothing much..

I was a sickly child. If I am ok for a couple of weeks I would be sick the next week.. nothing serious.. cold..cough..upset stomach ….. Pink of health was not a phrase I will find in my life history. just a few months before the preuniversity examinations which decides your career path I had to undergo appendicectomy and miss classes for over a month. I must have been lucky.. I got good marks and ended up in the premier engineering college in Kerala. I never followed a strict       exercise schedule by visiting gyms or yoga classes. Even I was lazy to follow home bound self help exercise regime. I also had brush with life threatening illnesses; but I came out successfully. I always joke..all removable organs have been removed from my body..tonsils, appendix, prostrate, cataract (lens of both eyes). Still sickness really did not change my life.. So there is no regret in that direction.

Career choice and working hard were other two main regrets of many people. When I got out of the engineering college there were hardly any jobs available. In fact for almost a year I helped out in my father’s dispensary. So when an opening came up I grabbed it with both hands. It was a sales mans job.. travelling.. meeting clients which was a bit difficult for me since I was at heart an introvert..by and by I started to enjoy travelling and meeting people.. it was  a plus point that my family never objected to my continuous travels (there were times when I was away for 300 days a year). I managed to carve out a career and so even after retirement from the company after working with them for 36 years I still enjoy travels and meeting people. So no regrets in this front.

Did I speak out my mind always? No.. but that I do not regret. 

Staying in touch with friends… this I always did and so this also is not in my regret list.

Did I do things which made me happy?? I think so even if it meant not conforming what the society expects.

So ultimately what regrets I have???????

The only regret I have is that I trusted most of the people I met…and this did not turn out correct. I never judged people correctly.. molly as a knack for that.. so sometimes I follow her instinct… and it helps..

If I get another chance I will live my life the way I lived already..no change…